People make out lists when they have the decision of returning home cross their mind. We all go through a ritual cleansing and renewal thinking of the prospects that you may return to back home have washed away since you left that eon ago.

There is reasons why people spend long times away from their birth home, family and friends they have grown up with. Usually it's travelling and coming in a close second is career prospects. But when you talk to people over here and they ask you how long you have been in London or even how long they have been, there is sometimes always an underlying process and thought of the reason of not returning as quickly as the working holiday visa specialists.

My decision to not return as sooner than later was confirmed this morning, although saddened by it, I was also relieved. Relieved in the instance that someone else is happier and better off and saddened that I was not there at the time.

Every month I have the pleasure I knowing someone returning or I have now spinned the term 'rotating back to the real world'. This is usually a horribly long drinking affair on a Saturday night in some place expensive and usually with you trying to crack onto the lamp shade at the end of the night. I've been blessed with meeting so many people here and hopefully blessed on my farewell, or should I say 'rotation', from London that I will be sharing it with some great friends who have obviously then outlasted me.

Mick returns home in a few weeks time. Back to South Australia. Louise returns home a month later with Lou hot on her heels two weeks later. This leaves me with a loss of neighbours. On a brighter note though, Brad returned last Monday and I believe Ben got back into the country for a couple of months yesterday. This Saturday will be filled with the other exciting long drawn out process of welcoming people back to London. This is lovingly coined as 'The Second Coming'.

My second coming has come and passed and for the first time this morning I have regretted it. I have time running out on a visa which I can renew, but for reasons which are never beneficial. Given the opportunity that would question my return then I would renew it, but that opportunity has not come about.... yet.

I have what I need here, and I know what I need when I return. The balance of having both is what I will find eventually.