What happens when you try to impress someone and make a complete-and-utter-balls-up of the attempt? Well it depends on a certain amount of measurement - first time you have met, a good friend or an acquaintance? For example when it comes to the first time you speak with someone and I have been known to ball's up many a good first impression with a 'I did this' story with maybe a vague sense of exaggeration, I tend to not associate with the person too much ever again with my own self vain approach of 'That conversation never really happened... did it?' - or you could bite the bullet and apologise for little brain-fart and carry on with life.

At least 90% of the time, nobody cares what you do. They won't remember. Unless you do something completely weird and memorable, or just look really freaky, most people's eyes will just glide over you. Especially on either end of retail transactions. People have enough concerns of their own, they don't have time to worry about you and what you did.

I feel, there is always a certain care and contempt scale we balance and weigh for individuals we see throughout our life. The care factor involves the conformed attempts society has places upon us and the moral obligations we are brought up by guidance along with your personal traits and decisions that has lead you to who you are. The contempt scale has the very similar to that of the care. We preform the weigh-in at every-time you make a decision on the person and their action.

People always think and question the why they were put on this planet and what their mission is, continually exhausting avenues of thought and action with changes to their own look, personality or life. Wouldn't we all liked to be remembered for something when we depart the living. Gazing at the endless stream of people that stroll pass you on a daily basis they all have their small mission to complete and grander task to begin. Is it wrong to have such a grand vision throughout life? Or, is it much more erroneous to never commence?

I was sitting with Naomi on the weekend discussing a similar personal paradox and I think she may have hit a nerve with a classic example of basic analysis and psychology about why I tend to be the way I am. Obviously not remembering the whole entire conversation, as I would of loved to have her write it out for me, it made me think the achievements I do within life are never enough and thus always striving to achieve that little bit more and never wanting to settle on the current, thus a vicious circle.

This I need to think on a little bit more and try and work out.