This blog is having an issue with me lately. Twice I have written a speil in the last week and it has not placed it and 100 other times I can hardly get on here.

Was up to a very debauched weekend - which I hope I can find the patience to write it up all over again...

Just put it this way Friday night I got home so drunk that I can't remember my ordeal.. my housemates say I was running around with my pants around my ankles... I'll hopefully let you all know about it later.. I'm sure you would be interested in such a story - even though I can't remember it.. and I think they are lying to me.. well maybe bending some truth + also Piss Boy strikes again in the household, Luke's amazing 10 word pick up on Saturday night and a whole bunch of stupid 'Get a grip on life' stories that will make you wish you weren't reading this!

In the meantime - go get some inspirational material from: http://budlight.whipnet.com/

Oh and I suppose I can leave you with this which I wrote the other day.. hope you're all well.

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11:33pm 4th November 2004

Inspiration causes people to act, no matter how meaningless it may mean to someone else, and what you may realize in an instant could make you decide on an action, which will eventually make YOU happier. We hold out possessions tight against our chest and doubt the reasoning behind other peoples actions, yet when we find ourselves thinking of an inspired thought, like a 100 watt light bulb doing a disco above your head, you have the overwhelming sense to carry it out and hopefully see it to the end. I know Carlin listens to those audio tapes quite frequently and it makes me laugh when she has them on and walking around the house... some people like myself just call that brainwashing, but I know she really wants to make it big and set her sights higher than most people to achieve. I'm just happy when I make it through the week without making an ass of myself somewhere (still yet to accomplish said feat).

I’ve just watched Touching the Void (http://www.touchingthevoid.co.uk/) on television and I was absolutely amazed by this Joe Simpson's feat, to continue when most people would just roll over and die. Is that why people receive those awards I rarely received? I was always jealous of the striker in my football team, everybody loved the center forward scoring those goals, however when I went into a mean tackle nearly breaking someone's leg and hurting myself in the process to prevent a goal it was something that was hardly clapped at... screw David Beckham and Harry Kewell... hail to the Sol Campbell's of this world. We can take this analogy and say to ourselves, it is better to defend your friends and family against the odds and put yourself in the face of danger, distraught, anguish and criticism to feel you are doing the right thing.

Coming out of my cage and I’m doing just fine ------ Sam came around on Tuesday night and I cooked a spag bol and we both chatted about things within our lives at the moment, and what we both feel are important to us. We spoke a little on relationships – something I have not done for a while lately, because I’m really feeling good about myself with things lately and enjoying life without the awkwardness of being within a monogamous relationship with someone who just doesn't understand, and this time I’m not going to go try looking hard for it. I digress from the point at hand... Sam and I chatted about the frequency of how things over in London get people depressed and how we both seem to be having a better time then most people. Sure we all whine about the weather and tube system, if you have experienced it once you would no doubt be crying bloody murder to people about it for the rest of your natural born.

You taught me about my soul, you shared with me your magic ------ The experience of all our lives are forecasted with the doom of others sometimes, overcoming this realization and becoming inspired to show who you are and not who people want you to be is something that we all must try and achieve. I for instance have changed, for the better and forever, for just being here and experiencing this. I have nothing to regret anymore and I am happy for the first time in a decade about where my life should be. The job I have now isn’t inspiring to continue my career, but you know what, this does not matter, I am a person who has decided to experience a little of life everywhere. I chatted to Steph on Tuesday night about this and she was amazed about the amount of jobs and experiences I have done.. plus she didn’t believe I was 27… so I must still look a little younger in the chubby’s. I will indulge you with the start of my work experience in a quick detail; KFC cook (the love of chicken is not enough for me), Coles check-out chick (Clean up on aisle two and we have a code 5 on aisle six), Concreter (yes I was fit, tanned and had a body like a greek god – words to the effect of meeting Nicola), Two years Business Management diploma while make ends meet by unpacking trucks at a parcel company and also scooting around on a trolley life to make orders for a supermarket chain (yes my life was degrading into Plumbers Crack alley), so I joined the Army for 2 years and blew things up, rode around on dinghy's in Sydney Harbour, shot at Kangaroos in a live fire exercise and blew old tanks up with all kinds of rockets and things that would make you piss yourself wiht fright, then came along BORAL and I was there for 4 years directing truck drivers and making a fool of myself to management (still yet to change), picked up some jobs after that and then came here.. and that's a different story – Cold Calling Birmingham, working in Heathrow Airport, working as a support worker for Adults with LD and now a recruitment coordinator... so a lot in 8 years of life I suppose and I’m going to keep chugging along!

Anyways I will say to you for a Christmas present for anyone (appeals to the male species) go get Touching the Void.
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Making the most out of life one pint at a time!